I'll save you the "it's been so long" banter and just introduce the latest chapter of my life. We'll call "Kids & Cake." I'm an elementary school teacher by day and a cheesecake slinging waitress by night. And I wouldn't have it any other way.
2009 has been a year of distance and discovery. Through meditation, prayer and good old fashion pain - i'm watching myself grow the f*ck up and it feels great. This point in my life couldn't have come any sooner.
Although it was short lived, I will always L0ve Toronto. The move sent me spiraling in the right direction. It was finally what I needed.
Feel the magic. .
Two scoops for you if you still check for this blog?
Listen, i'm back in New York. (Long Story) But if you didn't, then you should know Canada wasn't tryna give this chick a green card. So now im back! And as far as not posting, I just didn't have much i needed say. Some knew the movements tho.
im back now. muahz.
brand new
lil wayne
brand new
drake ft. lil wayne
Yet another conversation with May had me thinking. This time, about meditation. I've been loving our late night, sometimes mid-afternoon pow-wows. We're both at turning points in our lives, so our conversations are therapy. Being there for her helps me reflect on my own situation. And of course when I start complaining about my own issues, she always giving it to me straight.
Meditation was the 'unkown' my mom always talked about. And I think i've finally reached the stage in my life when my understanding is finally catching up with her teachings. When you realize the most important thing is to take care of yourself. Your physical body and of course your soul and your spirit... your essence. Nourish yourself. Be aware of yourself. Be honest with yourself. And be responsible for yourself. Live life in a state of being awake, not in a fog. Not accusing or blaming. And not in denial. It's all attainable through meditation or mindful relaxation whatever you chose to call it. Use your energies to mend what is broken.
It's an inner peace that takes time and commitment to accomplish, but once you're willing you can do. It requires courage to face the truth that will come to you, strength to seek change, patience to achieve your goals and faith to keep doing the work.
"From nothing comes truth. From truth comes courage. From courage comes change. All require faith."
Meggy* said, "I woulda been in a corner shaking from day 1, so be proud of yourself." I am. One day at a time. =)
*name has been changed because Meghan didn't want to be identified.
I need to give myself more credit. it's only been a 6 weeks & like she said I got BIG BALLS. lmao WORD..I GOT BIG BALLS!!
Reality is setting in ... It's been about a month and a half. And I'm starting to feel like it's out of sight out of mind for some people. They say people are only in your life for a reason and a seaon. So maybe the distance is helping life takes it's natural course. Who knows?
But what I do know is, I'm focused right now. Although, things aren't going as I planned -- it's my adventure. The salon is coming along nicely. There isn't too much more for me to do now. Once it's all done i'll post the before and after pics. And i'll def keep you posted as to when the show is going to air. But here's the dilemna -- do I come back to New York once it's done or do I stay out here and try to make it work?
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