I'd rather be hated for who I am, then loved for who I am not.
December 22, 2008
An "IF YOU KNOW ME, THEN YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS..." edition.
Posted by ms. gabrielleI've officially given up on gardening. Officially. Maybe Canada will have better weather.
I'm still up. Yea, big surprise.....I can't sleep. It's hard for me to fall asleep at night but during the day the slightest bit of idle time will slip me into a hibernating-cocoon. lol Anway, I guess I'll take this time to catch you up on a few things.
#1 Mecca has a new video out, remember him? This one is less graphic and completely non-violent, unlike the first. As a black actor/writer/director he's made the decision to produce movies showing black people in a positive light instead of the portraying the typical violent and sexual stereotypes.
Great decision Mec and I definitely support you 100%.
#2 I'm trying to decide on a place to have my going-away soiree. Here are the options thus far, Union Bar, Soel, Pacha & Negril. I'm looking for a place that will be free for my guest, reasonably priced drinks, great music (hip-hop/pop/and the likes), and a table section for me to share a cake with friends. Hit me up if you have any other suggestions. aim:dagabstar86
#3 Please stop with the subliminal messages. I'm over what happened last summer and you should be too.
#4 I'm going to start video-blogging pretty soon. Most likely when I land in Toronto. That will be my way of keeping all those who care updated on the happenings of my life. A mini-documentary of sorts. Should be fun! This blogging shit is like therapy. You should try it sometime.
I just got home from a night with one of my closest girlfriends. t'was nice. One the many nights i think we really needed to have before the BIG move. Strawberry Acai, dreams of gardening and plans for a 5 to 7. (hehe Only she would get that.) It's nights like these that memories are made of.
But look, it's late and I have to get up freakishly early (in about 4 hours). I'll continue my rantings some other time.
Love Gabb
P.S. frankie, i want that bracelet. make it happen. =)
Love Gabb
Phuck all of y'all who don't feel me on this song!!! Y'all just a bunch of hatin' ass haters!!!
Imma rider for my future hometown!!!
lmao. No but seriously. It's catchy. If you don't think so, then... then... your mama's a "plebian." (right frankie? lol inside joke)
#7 No babies to hold me back! (No offense to those who got knocked up before their time.) But not having any childin's to look after is great! It makes my spur-of-the-moment decision to move possible. The only life changes I have to consider are my own. And yes, some argue that having children in your early twenties is not the end of your life, but they're wrong! If you're a mother you should be putting your child's life first. If you're not then your priorities are dead wrong. Neway, i'm happy to say, I'm putting my life first cos i got no babies to hold me back!#6 Ain't No Ring on it. If he like it, then he shoulda put a ring on it. It took him over a year to finally start calling me his girlfriend. So, a ring? Uh... yea right. But wait, don't get me wrong. I'm definitely not looking to be married, but what's wrong with a little commitment? (More to come on this subject! Trust.) #5 Free health care. 'Nuff said.#4 Fly ass Job Opportunities! While Americans are loosing jobs left and right, I've already managed to land two jobs across the border. Na-Na-Nana-Naaaahhhh! =p#3 Fresh Start. I want to start over. Growing up I didn't have the best experiences. Reflecting on my years from Junior High School to college, I realized how much I sucked at living in the moment. I worried way too much. About everything. Growing up the way I did, really put a toll on me emotionally and socially. I can't wait to get away from all that. I'm not running, but I just need a break. Time to learn more about myself and who I want to be, without constant reminders of mistakes, shortcomings, and faux relationships of the past. (I could really go deep with this, but i'll save it for a later date.) Just put it this way, it's time I stop feeling sorry for my circumstances and live for my own happiness. #2 Life long connections. Honestly, I could count on with two fingers the people who truly know me and love me for being me. They've have ALWAYS been there and have ALWAYS seen the good in me. No matter what bullshit I was up to. Hopefully, i'll make a few more life long connections while i'm gone. #1 Time to spread my wings. At 22-years-old it's safe to say, the times come to leave the nest and spread my wings. And momma always said, "if you want to fly like an Eagle, you gotta leave the pigeons alone." Well, here I am leaving all these pigeons alone. Ya know, those toxic friends that make you feel guilty for doing shit with your life and being successful.
**I'm not sure if I will even be in America for the inauguration. :-( ** I really wanted to go to D.C. but i'll be in Toronto.**
If you didn't know by now, I am a big fan of Lykke Li. Her "i'm good, i'm gone" performance in the back of a london taxi cab got me hooked. Just for shits&giggles, here is the bathroom edition.
Okay, so its been a while. Forgive me. You need to catch up on a few things since i've been gone.
#1 I'm moving to Toronto!
#2 Umm... yea so i got in trouble with the Editor-In-Chief of Smooth magazine. Apparently, Smooth has exclusive rights over the articles I wrote for them and I'm not allowed to post them. oops :-p
#3 I'm bartending part-time to stack extra cash for the big move.
#4 Back to single again.
Heyyy there -
I deleted most of my posts becos i needed to purge.
Sue me.
My friend's boyfriend visiting from Virginia. So we're taking him out to catch that New York state of mind.
***And No! You can't have me. (Yes, you!!!) I would put your ass on blast but i'm trying NOT to be a vixen for the New Year. I know it's only November, but lucky for you i'm getting a head start, so the transition is smoother. F8cker!****
**Listening to the Audio version of Obama's "Audacity of Hope."**A word to the wise, don't doubt me. i'm a brawny brown skin 'cause that's how my mama raised me. We came from nothing - immigrants - now we own pieces of the American Pie. I wish my grandmother, who went from an immigrant live-in nanny in Pittsburgh to a citizen home-owner in queens, could see how deep her seeds have sown. She was my biggest cheerleader. She knew that whatever i could dream, i could make come true. She never doubted me. I just know she'd be so proud.
By the way, I'm so happy about my Smooth Magazine "writing" debut. Buy the issue, skip past the ass shots and look for my feature on Charles Hamilton.
So did you hear about the mommies who were all 'pissy' over Motrin's new ad? There was a group of enraged mamas on twitter planning to boycott or some ish. And please stop fronting like that ish is comfortable. I have one - for my doggy - and after about 30 minutes i'm ready to call it quits. Don't misunderstand, I do plan to carry my baby too, but... C'MON. MOMS AGAINST MOTRIN? Now, thats a bit much.
But, ahem, I guess that's the beauty of living in the good 'ol U.S of A. You can make a big deal out of dumb shit and it's okay. =\ I'm moving to Quebec.
(ABC Nightline video from that night.)Like most African-American communities, Washington D.C & Howard University, erupted in relief and with contentment, after the 11:00 p.m. countdown when news networks announced Barack Obama to the 44th President of the United States. I was not in Washington D.C., but in the Democratic Club with the rest of my St. Albans, Queens community. I lost my voice that night. It was memorable.
There is much about me that people don't get. Sh?t, I barely get it myself. I'm a work in progress but i'm convinced my foundation is strong. Sometimes I really wonder about who I am supposed to be & about who people expect me to be. I analyze my movements, my body language, my thoughts & the way other people react to me. But it doesn't stop there, when I'm around others i'm consistently analyzing their every move too. It's become an obsession to figure things out or at least to try. But there lies the problem. I spend so much time analyzing, criticizing and scrutinizing there's no time to live naturally in the moment.NEWS FLASH! I'm not like everybody else, I just know how to cover it up.
I just heard Lykke Li's song "I'm Good, I'm Gone," the song I posted yesterday, during an episode of C.S.I. Kewl! Go 'head girl. And apparently her and her band were performing in Brooklyn a few weeks back. I would have gone to see them. Ahh well.
My homeboy Mecca Don, better known as EMEKA, who's probably mad that I just shouted his government, is starring in this new silent short film he produced and directed and he plays all three lead characters. It's called GACA, which stands for "Goes Around Comes Around" and it's quite amusing. Especially the love scene. Cue up to 3:10, it's by far the best part of the flick. Shout out to Mecca's hot body! Aoooow. I can't wait to watch more.
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George put me on to this Swedish group, Lykke Li & I fell in <3. What is this genre of music called? i don't know. But it reminds me of Lily Allen sounds.
As sonically appealing as the song is, I still can't imagine it blowing up in the states. It's just something about that America's good 'ol fashion resistant to the new and to change! Maybe our new prez Obama will shatter those credo. Watch the other chapters of Black Cab Sessions. Killa Kela is dope - beatboxing with his cute likkle british accent. Me likey.
We could all use a fresh start every now and again - a chance to reflect on mistakes, come back and fix 'em. And i'm not ashamed to admit that i've made mistakes. Lots. But thru my adversity i've always come back stronger and tougher. Isn't that what life's all about?
So here i am... Flaws & All.
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