I'll save you the "it's been so long" banter and just introduce the latest chapter of my life. We'll call "Kids & Cake." I'm an elementary school teacher by day and a cheesecake slinging waitress by night. And I wouldn't have it any other way.
2009 has been a year of distance and discovery. Through meditation, prayer and good old fashion pain - i'm watching myself grow the f*ck up and it feels great. This point in my life couldn't have come any sooner.
Although it was short lived, I will always L0ve Toronto. The move sent me spiraling in the right direction. It was finally what I needed.
Feel the magic. .
Two scoops for you if you still check for this blog?
Listen, i'm back in New York. (Long Story) But if you didn't, then you should know Canada wasn't tryna give this chick a green card. So now im back! And as far as not posting, I just didn't have much i needed say. Some knew the movements tho.
im back now. muahz.
brand new
lil wayne
brand new
drake ft. lil wayne
Yet another conversation with May had me thinking. This time, about meditation. I've been loving our late night, sometimes mid-afternoon pow-wows. We're both at turning points in our lives, so our conversations are therapy. Being there for her helps me reflect on my own situation. And of course when I start complaining about my own issues, she always giving it to me straight.
Meditation was the 'unkown' my mom always talked about. And I think i've finally reached the stage in my life when my understanding is finally catching up with her teachings. When you realize the most important thing is to take care of yourself. Your physical body and of course your soul and your spirit... your essence. Nourish yourself. Be aware of yourself. Be honest with yourself. And be responsible for yourself. Live life in a state of being awake, not in a fog. Not accusing or blaming. And not in denial. It's all attainable through meditation or mindful relaxation whatever you chose to call it. Use your energies to mend what is broken.
It's an inner peace that takes time and commitment to accomplish, but once you're willing you can do. It requires courage to face the truth that will come to you, strength to seek change, patience to achieve your goals and faith to keep doing the work.
"From nothing comes truth. From truth comes courage. From courage comes change. All require faith."
Meggy* said, "I woulda been in a corner shaking from day 1, so be proud of yourself." I am. One day at a time. =)
*name has been changed because Meghan didn't want to be identified.
I need to give myself more credit. it's only been a 6 weeks & like she said I got BIG BALLS. lmao WORD..I GOT BIG BALLS!!
Reality is setting in ... It's been about a month and a half. And I'm starting to feel like it's out of sight out of mind for some people. They say people are only in your life for a reason and a seaon. So maybe the distance is helping life takes it's natural course. Who knows?
But what I do know is, I'm focused right now. Although, things aren't going as I planned -- it's my adventure. The salon is coming along nicely. There isn't too much more for me to do now. Once it's all done i'll post the before and after pics. And i'll def keep you posted as to when the show is going to air. But here's the dilemna -- do I come back to New York once it's done or do I stay out here and try to make it work?
Okay, so how about I'm supposed to be working but I've been doing everything else BUT! Oh well!
I cut my hair ... again! That in between stage was killing me, so I shaped it. It's pretty much all one length now. Sigh ...
Look forward to more posts, as I am finally settled at work and have found the perfect timing to bullsh*t on the web.
brb gotta check my facebook. :-p
I love you Lesa - R.I.P Granny
<3 u boo
kid cudi
the video is so kan-ye, but i'm feeling the song n the visuals nonetheless.
oh & listen to one of my new favs
It's Drake --he's from Toronto. although i hadn't heard of him until i got here, he's gettiing a lot of support apparently.
went to his album release party last week & lebron james was there to "cosign." (as if bron-bron can really give a rapper credibility - wtf)
it's ugly now ... but i'm feeling inspired. watchout now.
update: All done. What do you think?
Forgive me!!! Yea, I know I got some explaining to do! Life has been so hectic, I moved to another country after all. And each time I sat down to write, I couldn't gather my thoughts. But if you've been in contact, then you know exactly what I've been up to.
Can't wait for my visitor =)
Phew! I finally got my wifi up and running and my cell phone should be delivered by Friday. (Don't worry, I didn't forget to send everyone my new cell number.)
Things are hectic but I'm generally feeling real good about being here in TORONTO.
Who was I kidding when I thought I could move my entire life to another country in two suitcases?!?!!
But of course I'm sitting here writing when I should be trying to stuff all my shoes in this suitcase! It will all get done, I may not go to sleep tonight, but I will all get done. I work well under pressure.
Things have been super-hectic these last few days, as I imagined they would be. I really did want to make it out to the Union Bar tonight, but first things first! Sorry guys.
Next post will be from CANADA! Unless I get really bored in the morning. Sayonara!!
What does it mean when one of your "best friends" can actually believe that you've already left for Canada when in fact you're just sitting at home in you're dining room? But they haven't been around to know that you actually don't leave until FRIDAY!
Update: I removed the transcript because it was unnecessarily too long to have on here. Watch the video or google the text. Damn.
First off, let me start by professing my love and devotion for President Barack H. Obama. I have a serious crush on that man. And I'm so in love with that family! Sasha and Malia? C'mon how cute are they!I spent the morning watching the Inauguration on the big screen in the Queens Theatre in Flushing with my mom and my neighbor. Only in America can the transition of power happen so smoothly and peacefully. Over 1.9 million people gathered in Washington D.C to witness the inauguration of our nations first elected Black president. There were no incidents and besides Obama's fumble on a few words during his oath, nothing went wrong.But the million dollar questions is, have the events of today tempted me to revoke my relocation to Canada...? Nope, not really. Sayonara Suckers! :-p
Yea so, remember those plans of "inebriation beyond my alcoholic capacity," yea, that never happened. SMH... You know how it is when you're the host --You go from changing the music to changing toilet papers rolls. Puh!
But a night of well wishes from a house full of family and friends (about 70ppl), what more can a girl ask for.
alesa, I'm sooo gonna miss you.
belle*ixchel, I don't think you even realized it, but everything you said to me in my room was exactly what I needed to here.
dan da man aka the fabulous stud to the left and right, $6 Tuesdays! Can't wait until you come to visit. After all our trials and tribulations in the J-School we've finally made it to the other side. San Diego? Berlin? I'm down.
dan da man aka the fabulous stud to the left and right, $6 Tuesdays! Can't wait until you come to visit. After all our trials and tribulations in the J-School we've finally made it to the other side. San Diego? Berlin? I'm down.
Giscard, THANK YOU! No matter what, I always know you want the best for me and you have my back. One of the best things that have happened to me in two years.
Manolo, you're such a big bundle of joy. thanks for not ODin' on the food too.
Risse, thanks for giving me that time you owed.
Manolo, you're such a big bundle of joy. thanks for not ODin' on the food too.
Risse, thanks for giving me that time you owed.
cortney, what is it now...? 14/15 yrs? Let's keep it going!
onekeema, deems, Rclunis, kathy, jenn, melendez, kdawg, meggie, oni, mr. S. Roberts, bestbud, frankie, jessica, ms.tea, weinberger & co. (ryan) .... TO EVERYONE that was there for me, THANK YOU! It meant a lot to see so many friendly faces there to support me and wish me well.
P.S. After falling into someone's cup my camera was out of commission for the rest of the fckin night :-( So for now, all I have are a few flicks from DanDaMan's Canon. If you have pictures from Saturday please e-mail them to me.
Ju, i'm happy i didn't have to lay hands on you. lol
maha aka sleeping beauty, you're lucky all I need is a mckensie and a double double and i'll forget all about it.
frankie, get that money girl. I ain't madatcha.
onekeema, deems, Rclunis, kathy, jenn, melendez, kdawg, meggie, oni, mr. S. Roberts, bestbud, frankie, jessica, ms.tea, weinberger & co. (ryan) .... TO EVERYONE that was there for me, THANK YOU! It meant a lot to see so many friendly faces there to support me and wish me well.
P.S. After falling into someone's cup my camera was out of commission for the rest of the fckin night :-( So for now, all I have are a few flicks from DanDaMan's Canon. If you have pictures from Saturday please e-mail them to me.
P.S.S I'm SOOO glad that most of my friends were not present for that "roast" session my mom thought would be a great idea. If i wasn't so chocolately i would have been rosey red with embarrassment. My friends and family had a lot of nice things to say but I'm so uncomfortable with accepting compliments.
P.S.S.S MUCHAS GRACIAS for all the cash donations. A girl like me really appreciates the greenery. But i do love my juicy couture hot chocolate set, thanks jenn.
If you're gonna hate ... hate me for my BEST me
belle*ixchel. issh, i'm so sorry for what ever it is.
Time is surely ticking whether I've found everything I needed for the move or not. As of now I'm on the hunt for a fashionable puffer coat preferably with a hood. AND If this knee length Mackage Puffy wasn't $600, I'd surely cop.
Or maybe something similar to this sheepskin coat. Because with a $2800 price tag ... It's surely out of my league. Dan, suggested Zara or Urban Outfitters ... we'll see.
ON ANOTHER NOTE
This packing shit got me going qua-zzy (lol@Manolo) and I haven't even started! And as for my soiree, plenty-a-people have RSVP'd -- but let's see how many people actually show up on time (if at all) to send me off. Oh yea -- I plan to be inebriated to the highest extent of my body's capacity to absorb alcohol. Who's with me? Frankie? :-P U always with me!!
P.S. MELENDEZ loves my pudding and if he tells you any different he's URLIN' !
Comment ...
tonight, McKensie and Double Double sushi rolls with Maha and a celebratory game of pool with the BatMan.
Mmmm ... I can't wait for that Mckensie girrrlll. Mouth watering just thinking about it. It might just be the single thing I miss the most when I leave New York. smh...
Gail must've given me whatever it is she had, because now i'm laid up with a nasty runny nose and body aches so bad I can hardly sleep.
...Anyway, there are exactly 9 days until I move. And i'm getting scurred. I'm nervous yet anxious ... i'm happy ... but i'm sad.
I have a confession to make... Even though I felt miserably sick all day, I went out with him to grab a bite to eat. And there was just something about our chemistry tonight that put me at peace with the end of our relationship. Nothing went wrong, but the vibe was different. Maybe it's an emotional defense mechanism or maybe i'm just over it. Either way, I'm at peace and i'm ready to be single, sexy and free in Toronto.
The number one cause for bruised egos among males between the ages of 21-25, is over exaggeration of the pipe game.
Symptoms: Obvious amplification of sexual qualifications and overestimated ability.
Causes: The gassing of the head by previous female companions; leading to the lack of any real understanding of what it takes please a woman.
Treatment: A large daily dose of "keep it real with ya self mah niggah. "
Ladies night for Frankie's birthday. Champagne & Birthday Cake! Gotta love it. Spent an hour watching video throw backs on youtube. these in particular bring back some fond memories ...
Tweet ft. Missy _Oops (oh my)
TLC _No Scrubs
SWV _ Weak
Aaliyah _Are you that somebody?
Fact: Whether you like it or not my flight, leaves LaGuardia @ 5pm on friday, jan 23rd.
What to wear, what to wear, WHAT TO WEAR?!
For a few weeks now, I have been debating whether to buy a new dress to wear to my going away party or not. After realizing nothing in my closet would work, I decided to breakdown and buy. But I damn sure didn't want spend $100+ on a outfit for the occasion
So after some digging, I found 7 options UNDER$50 =)
Jersey draped dress. *hmmm... iunno maybe*($42.00)
Lace mini prom dress with a sweetheart neckline.
Black fitted layered mini-skirt w/ a skinny black belt.
*I know I can pull this one off, but it may be a bit too office chic for this occasion. That party IS at my crib after all.*
($24.00)
Fitted strapless pinstripe dress w/ the layered skirt look.
*Although, it's similar to the previous the color and the price make its hawter!*
($21.00)
Lace mini prom dress with a sweetheart neckline. *I always say i love my collar bone, so this sort of neckline will definitely be flattering*
($24.00)
Low-scoop neck silk bow dress. *It's simple in the front and va-va-voom in the back.*
($45.00)
Soft jersey mini dress.
($33.00)
*This one is my favorite.*
Sequin mesh corset dress. *In either the silver or the black*
($27.00)
I'm passionate, so when I love, I love hard. I always give my all. So now, I'm crushed.
Posted by ms. gabrielle
I'm sick. I'm literally sick to my stomach over this. Here I am, 15 days away from my big move to Toronto, and I get dumped. He doesn't want to be in a long distance relationship. Pah. Honestly, as rocky as things have been for our last 7 months, he obviously didn't want to be in any type of relationship. But of course in my typical "go-hard gabby" fashion, I always did my damn best to make it work - even when it became emotionally unhealthy. And now that we're at odds because I'm leaving, this isn't a battle I can win. Finally, the facts have won the war. I'm moving... and he doesn't want to wait.
How do you know when it's time to give up on the one you love? How do you know when HE is the one worth all the fuss? Maybe if I could just find the answer to these questions, it would make this break-up easier.
I'm learning the ABC's to Canadian life.
Okay so...
Canada has a democratic parliamentary government. With a Queen, an appointed Senate and an elected House of Commons.
Toronto has their own flag. Cute.
There's a Prime Minister and governmental responsibilities are divided into 10 provinces; Alberta, British Colombia, Manitoba, New Brunswick, Newfoundland and Labardor, Nova Scotia, Ontario, Prince Edward Island, Quebec and Saskatchewan and 3 territories; Nunavut, Yukon and Northwest Territories.
I'm so excited. Can you tell? Listen to my theme song. My cousin put me on to this. (Frankie, are you having nightmares yet? lol)
"Goood things grrooooow in Ontaarrio"
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